In the life of Megan Brown

I, Megan Brown, am known as someone super social, "Queen of Social Media, friendly, caring, and loved. I like to post my life so that my family can see i am doing well, so that friends can see that college is fun, and for my pleasure of seeing that i am having fun. Lately this has not been the situation. This post may seem sappy, but this is my current life! Not everyone lives a perfect life, and a lot of people think I live a perfect life....I WISH! My life is beyond from perfect. Lately i have been worrying about making others happy, rather than myself happy. I try too hard to fit in, and i shouldn't have to try at all. So i made the bold decision to delete my Instagram, Snapchat, and Twitter, not forever, but until i find my happiness. On Snapchat, i constantly see groups of friends together having fun, and myself not being invited i tend to get jealous and wonder why i wasn't invited? This semester has been a lot of me asking what people are up-to, and then they ...

Im a big girl now. I am attending my first University, Southern Utah University, i have a career picked out, Event Planning, and i feel like everything is slowly falling into place. Being a transfer from Snow College, this place is bigger, has more people, and has endless adventures to embark on. I want to tell you guys about my first week of school, because its been AMAZING! 1. I have met SO MANY people! The girls I room with, Jennee Moore, and Julia Rainey, are widely known  here, so everyday we always have someone new over that i am meeting, and being the shy person i am, they have brought they shy out of me! 2. We have parties on the daily, called "9 @ 9" which is you come over to our apartment (#9) at 9 in the evening, and Julia has a party rocker speaker that illuminates lights all over our porch, and people will just come over and hang with us! When its raining, we move the party inside, and its a great way to meet a lot of people! Our porch is called "The P...

So I tried uploading a blog awhile ago about my first 2 weeks of being here at Southern Utah University, but for the life of me, it wouldn't load! So here i am today to try again and tell you about my first 2 MONTHS here at SUU! To get the bad out of the way, I hate SUU! Classes are hard, social life is hard, family is far away, and i don't have my moms cooking.... I am currently in some Pre-Requisite classes, and some legit classes for my major. My major is in Hotel Resort & Hospitality Management, and hope to become an Event Planner, don't know the area yet specifically! I am in an accounting class, which is kicking me in the booty! I thought it was going to be fun and easy, but its not as fun and easy as i thought learning about credits and debits ect.... My nutrition class is going well and i realize my nutrition is kind of down hill... that class makes me feel bad about my food choices... I love my hotel hospitality class, because we go on many trips to different...

I'm self conscious. I want to look good all the time. Im not always pretty. I want to be liked. I want to fit in. I never want to be alone. These are all things that cross my mind. I'm self conscious because i feel like i am being constantly judged by other girls. I want to look good all the time because whenever i wear lounge clothes with my hair up and no make up, one of my friends always shows up looking 100x better than me. I tell myself I'm not always pretty, because people at college would tell me i have "Asian eyes" when i don't wear mascara, or that i look tired. "Are you ok?" YES I AM OK! I want to be liked....who doesn't?? I want to fit in because again...who doesn't! I am about to go to my first University, and am scared i won't fit in because i am way shy at first.. so that doesn't help... That goes along with i never want to be alone... its just a sucky feeling.. some nights i want to turn to someo...

WARNING: SAPPY POST AHEAD! Ok guys, Snow College has my heart! First, people always ask me "Why Snow College?" When i tell them I'm from Washington State, and here is my reason: I didn't want to go to college, i wanted to go to beauty school and become a Cosmetologist, and was 90% set on Paul Mitchell Provo, and even went a toured there and filled out the paperwork! I even went and toured Snow College Richfield Campus, and that campus just didn't feel like home to me. My mom told me i should look elsewhere because i would only be cutting farmers hair! HA..NO! So as we toured Ephraim campus, i felt something special. This was a small school, small class sizes, and Jennee Moore gave me a tour that changed my life! I knew that this was the school for me, and i only applied to Snow College, and not even schools in WA! Crazy.. i know! I didn't even know what to major in... i knew something business related, but Snow College was a great start to figure out what...

I been thinking a lot about how hard life is getting. No one said life is easy, and if they do say that, then they are doing something wrong. Think back to the good ol 1st grader days. My elementary school required a dress code of only wearing navy blue, navy green, khaki, and white. I walked into school not worrying about what other people were wearing, or the latest fashion. I was able to walk in not worrying about how my hair looked or wearing make up. We weren't judged as much as we are now as adults. We didn't have to worry about who was dating who, who was cheating on who, or who is the most popular. We were careless little kids who ran around the playground, getting dirty, and doing what little kids do best. College. Girls are the worst. We can all admit that we get jealous of each other at times because she looks gorgeous today and i look like i just crawled out of bed. Boys think we look sick when we don't wear mascara ( i have had guys tell me i look asia...

Hello!! SO! Most of you all know that i was adopted! I know its no surprise to most of you, but a lot of you have been asking about my story since i have met my birth mother, Kristina! Here we go :) When i was 2 weeks old i was adopted into the most amazing family EVER! This was a closed adoption, meaning i couldn't know any personal information about my birth parents, and they couldn't know anything personal about me either! Our names were even confidential. My name was Melanie, my birth mom was Kelly, my dad was Archie, and my parents that raised me were Scott and Lisa! Deborah ( the one who raised me) wrote my birth mom (real name Kristina) for 9 years updating her about my progress in life, like my day to day progress growing up! The LDS Social services ( what i was adopted through) stopped sending my moms letters, and so the connection stopped for a few years. I would always ask deborah off and on about my parents, like what they were like, what the looked like, but ...